Flashbacks

Flashbacks, disrupted sleep, low weight, fear, and periods of severe mental strain shape the year. Some days are spent pursuing major business plans; others are spent rebuilding enough stability to continue.

Lehan recruits people, pursues banking and cybersecurity deals, approaches investors, redesigns the company, and considers expansion into the United States and Singapore. The ambition reaches far beyond the company’s early resources, forcing constant reinvention.

Covid moves from distant news to a force closing borders, businesses, and ordinary life. Confinement intensifies family pressure and removes many of the remaining ways to escape the private crisis inside the house.

His mother, relatives, money, control, dependence, and unresolved family history repeatedly enter the record. Memories of his father return through songs, watches, places, family stories, and lingering questions about his death.

Trump, Sri Lanka, Iran, China, religion, race, war, policing, and power are argued over as events unfold. The diary preserves conviction, argument, reconsideration, and changing judgments without pretending the year arrived with finished answers.

Food, films, music, television, desire, habits, jokes, games, dreams, and business ideas continue beside the struggle to survive. These ordinary pleasures and distractions prevent the book from becoming only a record of illness or crisis.