FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 5, 2020
12:15 a.m.
I'm watching Euphoria. It's pretty s***. It's a 5 out of 10 at best. It's terrible. Rotten tomatoes are rotten. I'm having a wonderful dinner. The Great Wall Restaurant food has improved.
1:15 a.m.
I finished watching Euphoria. I hated it. They put in a lot of work. I'd give it 6 out of 10 at most. I wish I didn't watch it. Some of the girls like Cassie Howard played by Sydney Sweeney were really attractive, very voluptuous. It had a good message, nice theme, well written. It's easy to judge, critique, hard to produce and make.
Life without air conditioning is hard. It's boiling hot in my room. I remember back in University of Leicester, it would some times get hot. I'd be in my Hefner robe. But now, in my room, it's ridiculously hot. I can't breathe. I'll probably watch some more tv. I'll sleep later. I better take 45 mg of Mirtazapine.
It's so hot today. I did my company letterhead again, it looks pretty good. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It looks world class. I love it.
1:30 a.m.
I'm watching the new Mulan (2020). I love the song, I'll make a man out of you. I love this. I love the Chinese. I love China. I'm learning Chinese. I still haven't learned the bad words. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
I'm shocked I never learned the bad words in Chinese. I think I once did, but I forgot. I must've, I remember, someone told me to say something like "Diu Lay Lo Mo" or at least "Diu Lay" in Chinese, I think it was Ryan Goh, in Singapore, and I said it and someone was hurt and upset and screamed back at me, I was so happy, I knew the magic words worked.
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One day, Martinn uncle told me he will give me a Pokemon game if I asked him in English language. So, I learned English. I think if he had asked me to learn Chinese, it would've been better.
It's not a hard language to learn. 我 means I, 你 means you. You can take it from there. I would've anyway learned English language. My master language. My internal thinking voice language. I must learn Chinese. I want to do business in China. I love the Jewish people and learned the greeting words in Hebrew, but I'm not a bright person, so I doubt I can learn Hebrew.
Denzil Perera is trying to get $100m investment from China, we're forgetting about England and America, and India, we're trying to go to China, we have good chemistry, I have good chemistry, I'm treated as a friend, I've never experienced any disrespect from a Chinese in my life.
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1:45 a.m.
I'm getting sleepy. I love Mulan. I love this movie. I was watching it and I guess that it's real actors. But for a second, after watching new Lion King, which is animated, i honestly can't tell if it's animated or not. If Mulan is animated, i wouldn't be surprised. It looks life like. It's realistic. I can't tell it apart.
2:30 a.m.
I'm getting sleepy. It's so hot in my room. I'm tired. I wish I had some chocolate. Or I wish I had some ice cream. ██████████████████████████████████ It's so annoying. I can't get any ice cream from the supermarket. I should've just bought 2 litres of mango ice cream instead of 1 litre. I regret it. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
I wish Michelle Yeoh and Jackie Chan could've and should've somehow been in Mulan. I love them. I think China needs to be more liberalized culturally. Jackie Chan was a ████████ once, just like Sylvester Stallone.
In the same way, Xi Jinping and Jack Ma and other Chinese need to loosen up, be cool, laugh, live a little, be in Mulan as cameos, etc. There's gotta be a Chinese Hollywood. I get a good feeling from eccentric Jack Ma, there must be more Chinese like him who represent the modern new China.
2:45 a.m.
I like how dodgy Dave Cameron had a beer with Xi Jinping once. China is no longer a poverty stricken disaster. China is a great dragon. There's people starving in America now. China must take the new place in the lead. Economically, they're good, now socially and culturally, they must lead.
3:00 a.m.
Aww Mulan is treated badly because she's a girl. When I was small, I had hairy legs, I was really ashamed because I wanted shaved clean smooth legs like a girl. I think I'm a little bit of a girl. My mum was right to put me in St Bridget's Convent. I used to shave, then later trim my legs like Richard Branson.
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4:30 a.m.
I saw Mulan. I loved it. But I wish they had my favourite song I'll make a man out of you. It's a beautiful movie. I'm going to sleep soon.
1:45 p.m.
Just woke up. I'm hungry. Need food. Need to wash my face, brush my teeth and see what's going on. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
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3:00 p.m.
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3:15 p.m.
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3:45 p.m.
Let's see what happens.
4:15 p.m.
I'm not sure about any of these people. I don't see any real attack thus far. I'm wondering whether I should end my relationship with these guys.
I'm starting to believe there's no future with any of them. They've got no assets, no plans and no value to me. They don't offer any friendship, no loyalty, no respect, there's no trust and I have no mutual friends or any shared, common interests.
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5:00 p.m.
I'm starting to worry about "the guilty conscience" thing. It's going to be with me forever. I'll regret it. Somehow, my conscience will cause me to punish myself. I won't have the power to stop it. It's cognitive dissonance. That's why I have to be extra careful.
