I Was Burned Out, Drank Port, and Wrote Through the Stress

January 3, 2020

I was burned out, drinking, and still pushing myself to think ahead, moving between stress, ambition, and the feeling that I had to keep producing even while depleted.

TUESDAY, DECEMBER 29, 2020

1:45 a.m.

The 60 mg of Mirtazapine isn't working anymore. It is an antidepressant and tranquilizer. It knocked me out at 9 p.m., I woke up dehydrated at around 11 p.m. I played chess.

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Perhaps it's too much stress overloading and flushing my brain. I think it will improve.

I'm disappointed my mum's not doing enough, it's a terrible unforgivable waste of time, opportunities and causes a profound many problems and risk.

We're waiting to hear from Thilanga uncle. I have to stick with the decision that if you tell someone you need a mosquito net and then they refuse, argue or don't understand, you must

just roll with it, move on and treat my mum or Thilanga uncle the way they want to be treated: a.k.a. the platinum rule in Sheryl Sandberg and Adam Grant's Option B.

2:00 a.m.

If you try to help some dude, you just get into trouble. These people here are culturally different to me. This much is crystal clear. It's best to avoid any discussion on politics or religion tactically like

the plague, I'll just start telling these guys in my family, that I anyway only add new solutions as politics, I can't take part in any religious activities as Thilanga uncle's said I'm not a Buddhist a long time ago,

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2:15 a.m.

starting with the freedom to stay away from any activities where I have to meet people I don't like. These people, i don't enjoy their company, i don't see any interesting content, they're weird like those █████████Amish ██████

you see in Avicii's Wake Me Up movie. That's all there is to it. My loyalty shouldn't stay with these guys. These people are wicked. They're bad guys. They sleep without mosquito nets because they must punish themselves.

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7:45 p.m.

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29 Dec 2020

5:45 a.m.

"Good Nightmare"

I had a very strange nightmare. I was in a cricket stadium. I saw Chathula Sumathipala say hello to Mahela Jayawardena and Kumar Sangakkara was nearby.

Mahela saw me, he was very cool. I was surprised as I don't know him. He saw this, shook hands, was cool. I told him I thought I was dreaming as a compliment.

Sanga acted completely differently. He tried to walk past, ignoring me unfeeling. He seemed to not like me or was repulsed, he was under stress or anxious or angry.

Outside the cricket stadium, was a dark outside stadium section. It was a short intense dream. Over here, when we were walking, I noticed a strange beggar like person. He seemed weird.

So, I said, hey there's a bogey, this guy looks crazy. He smirked angrily at me and made an angry I'm gonna kill you face at me.

He looked very wicked, like a demon. I backed off, I guess, I didn't want to warn anyone out of fear. I was a distance away from the other 3. I also second guessed myself as it was wrong to judge based on appearance.

I saw him go up to Sanga, pull out a handgun and two shots were fired. I saw blood spray like a mist. I turned around and ran as I was far away anyway, I think I got shot too as the dream ended.

I thought these people are all innocent. I thought Thilanga uncle could be killed too. This is all a simulation. I have to try and help everyone, I have to heal and save lives, that is true Buddhism, compassion and empathy.

Hurting others, mistrusting people, that's bad karma. You don't have to do any evil in this world, save as painlessly as possible killing animals for food, to succeed in this life. These good and bad things come right around full circle.

I have been born lucky. A lot of good things fell on my lap.

These people like the Dharmadasa family or Sharmas, I don't really want any tragedy to befall any of them. They all deserve to be well, happy, peaceful and free as Bhante Saranapala prays.

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David Chichinadze, myself and many of our friends laughed about 5G Covid-19 conspiracy, we act as if it's true for fun and amusement, but some people believe this kind of thing.

Many millions believe in Jesus, they believe in Muhammad. I have to show respect, show compassion and love these people as that is the only correct thing to do.

If people don't use mosquito nets, I must keep pushing for that. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ How many times do you get to save a friend?

I have to save this place somehow and that means showing empathy. I gotta be the benchmark in empathy globally if I want to succeed at finishing what Upali Wijewardena started.

I'm a big guy because of my family, I have power, I shouldn't use it to bully, intimidate and harass and clamp down hard on innocent or confused people. ███████ is innocent, I dunno how my wild suspicion got the better of me.

These guys, I should try to heal them and help them. Religion is a good thing, it's a positive force. It's helped keep things in check over 1,000s of years, helping to keep people safe.

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This is a better way than to destroy enemies by force, which results in vastly negative, bad karma, that returns to us. You can always overcome negative energy with kindness.

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It's good we're moving away from the US and UK. It's good to partner China and Russia to maintain a strategic balance. The people in the west aren't perfect, they seem to be out to get us. We need to always try to partner China and Russia for business as well.

I don't know, maybe, but I do know I have a duty to help Tamils and Muslims as a head of the majority. I will do something I can to help people understand one another. This is a gift from Father Christmas -- similar to how Scrooge met the ghosts of Christmas in Charles Dickens's Christmas Carol.

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 30, 2020

10:00 a.m.

It's a new day. I can hear the gardener mowing the lawn grass outside. I'm lazy to cut my beard. My electric shaver is for small hair only, so I never use it. I'll be forced to use the blade. I'm so lazy these days.

6:45 p.m.

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7:00 p.m.

I'm improving my writing skills by writing a lot. When I read through things I write, I notice that there's a lack of spelling or grammatical mistakes, but I also notice I have a unique writing style. I type very fast too. However, my tone, writing style, the way the sentences are structured, it can use refinement, I can always improve on this.

When re-writing what I wrote, I saw a lot of mistakes, each time I correct, I notice more mistakes, which is good. It demonstrates that my objectivity is intact. I was also playing Chess on Chess dot com today. I'm a subscriber. So, I'm learning and improving. It's all about progress, improvement and this is a form of meditation.

I was thinking that when I think about people I don't like or hate, I don't really hate anyone. When I first realized Lal uncle betrayed us, I didn't want to talk about it, later, it slowly came out, then later, I got angry, there were trigger moments, such as when he confessed, but now, I feel a sense of apathy because I don't genuinely care all that much.

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Now, the guy's 3 bn LKR in debt to HNB. I hope I get the 6 acres in Grandpass Colombo. It's very valuable land. I think the property is valued at over 1 bn LKR or something. I dunno. I want it. I wonder what to do to get it for myself. This Thilanga uncle is according to cousin Koshi friends with Harry Jayawardena uncle, (besides promising to marry his daughter Stasshani), I wonder what we can do to make this happen, I guess, we can promise him a good deal with the Rajapaksas instead of the sticker rule that costs DCSL millions of bucks or some thing of value.

I'm sure he's got some big plans or serious problems he can use our help with. I dunno what the extent to his relationship with Thilanga uncle is. I have to dig into it. But by the time I get the cyber deals, I should be in a good enough position to negotiate myself, without Thilanga uncle around.

7:15 p.m.

I have understood it is easier to write smaller sentences. Writing smaller sentences is easier for people to read. When writing larger sentences, it is hard for people to read.

I have understood it is easier to write smaller sentences because writing smaller sentences is easier for people -- when writing larger sentences, it is hard for people to read.

Yes, that settles it. The fewer words in a sentence, the better. I also want to start typing definitions for big words in between brackets. Or I can provide simple explanations. This is a lot better. This is a clever way to improve my writing and journaling which is my favourite hobby.

7:30 p.m.

It's interesting how I think in English. It's like English is my OS or root or the kernel. A lot of people in SL, such as Thilanga uncle, f***, it should be uncle Thilanga and not "Thilanga uncle". It's a common problem in SL. It's grammatically wrong. I have a gut feeling uncle Thilanga and my mother Shanika think in Sinhalese language. We need people in our team to speak with them in Sinhalese.

I think with computer programming, I'm terrible with math, but I'm good with understanding math formulae and also with computing programming logic. I couldn't do the Python3 exponential functions which is / basically. I cannot understand this complicated maths. Zuck isn't good with math either, so, that is good to know. Plus, Elon hires all the As and Bill love lazy people -- so, I have hope.

I think today, I was working on and thinking about helping uncle Thilanga. I spent a lot of time. He's like my dad. So, I'm like Michael Corleone (Pacino) and I'm saving Vito (Brando) in the hospital. People like his son Udhantha, he's like Sonny (James Caan), he'll tell me he's not my dad like Sonny told Tom Hagen (Robert Duvall) -- 'cause he was adopted.

I do my 5 minutes on the elliptical machine because Chamath Palihapitiya pointed out, us Sinhalese are prone to diabetes. I'm scared. I worry I already got prediabetes. My mum might have it, my grandma had it. I don't get much exercise. Jonathan has it. Sounds like a curse. I heard Sheryl Sandberg's husband Dave Goldberg died on the elliptical machine on a holiday due to an undiscovered issue.

I don't know what to do with Thilanga uncle. It seems anyway SL has gone a certain direction. I'm just exploiting things in a big way. He's extremely friendly with our prospect heads. I'm eagerly waiting to see our deals signed. Plus, investing is a lot easier for us. It's very likely I'll earn a billion dollars very fast because I have the political power, access to cheap labour, high tech stuff from Israel and can make stuff in close partnership over the long term.

7:45 p.m.

It's just a question of how do you exploit the political power? Already, I guess, the intended outcome of this stuff, is the Rajapaksas feel like they can trust us. So, that's a ticked box. It's not just them, they've got trusted friends. My team has intimate relationships with those fellows, so, we have ticked that box as well. We're just waiting to get this first few initial big deals signed.

I hope we can open a Facebook office in SL. We can change the laws to invite them here. Amazon already went to India. But Facebook, they only have an office in SG. They can set up here too. So, SG for China which is probably never going to happen. But we can help ease into Indian market. I wonder how to get into China. I hear it's a nightmare. I don't know any foreign MNCs in China.

The Chinese just import soya beans and stuff. It's next to impossible to penetrate that China market. I'm also not happy because I don't know how to get in there. I've been thinking about it for weeks. Dhammika got in via uncle Martinn Teng in Singapore, and he is going to or will build a shopping mall, but that is hard to understand. How will the Chinese give that to him?

It must be some kind of quid pro quo deal. But that can't be because Dhammika Perera isn't a public official. He can't do anything for China. It could be he's an intermediary. But that also is strange. China knows this guy can earn money off China through shopping malls, they are not that easy.

WEDNESDAY, DECEMBER 30, 2020

PART TWO

7:45 p.m.

I can't remember where I heard the story about uncle Martinn. Most likely it was straight from the Chinese horse's mouth (an idiom, meaning Martinn himself), but I can't recall. I remember a long time ago, I saw PM LHL of SG, telling that it's not a city building game like Sim City, it's not as simple as that. However, in truth, that is all it boils down to in economics and business. The Chinese, they must be counting the dollars and cents before approving anything.

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I'm getting sleepy. I'm going to think about this Thilanga uncle. rewrite this post about him again, just to make it easier to read. I have adopted the Star Wars Mandalorian tone as my thinking and writing inner voice because it is so cool. It's like the BBC tone as well haha.

Oh I almost forgot, I thought when I saw this Mandalorian take off his helmet, someone who never shows his face, to save Grogu, the baby Yoda, I think *ah ha just like Brother Jonathan Hirshon!*, showing his face -- when speaking with Bhante and us, ready to do anything to save me, I dunno, seems like he'd do it.

8:00 p.m.

My whole world revolves around me. I'm a bit selfish. It seems everyone in my world, they all sort of are part of my life. I think highly of people. I think that if you really want to improve rapidly, you gotta think about the best versions of other people first. What can China do to better? It shows they stand to gain socially to enjoy life and happiness more.

They're easing up. They seem to have taken over as the US has lost its edge. The US aren't understanding of other cultures. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

The Chinese, they understand. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It's never going to happen. They feel scared.

I'm just 27 now. I'm growing old. What comforts me is that the heads of the customers are very friendly with uncle Thilanga when Jacques and I overhead them talk. That's a good sign. This is gonna happen. I'm wondering where to put up the Israel Embassy. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:15 p.m.

I'm quite shocked nobody else thought of it. The Jews have done so much for us. 1. The tea (sigh), I shouldn't have told Jonathan about that. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ But he deserved to know that. 2. There's a lot of very important other things I don't want to list down, a lot of other countries and people have in comparison done nothing for us.

I feel like listing these things down is like putting expensive stuff in my shopping cart hehe. I'll tell them later. It's a bad idea to tell people. They'll start saying, "After everything we've done for you, xyz, and abc and ... █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

11:30 p.m.

I took 60 mg of Mirtazapine. My beard is growing like Mikey De Alwis's. I have to shave soon. I found a red bump on my ankle or heel, hope it's just a mosquito bite. I'm going to sleep soon.

11:45 p.m.

I'm listening to Dua Lipa IDGAF. I love this song. I need to get the UK top 40 playlist off the ██████████

"You say you're sorry

But it's too late now

So save it

Get gone

Shut up

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I saw Celine Dion in the morning with James Gordon doing a carpool and also with Jimmy Fallon. I had no idea she was so cool. I love her songs. She's very cool.

Wed 1 Jan

1:00 p.m.

I really like the sweet taste of Graham's tawny port wine. The natural sugars, fructose, in the grapes remain and don't get fermented (sugar into alcohol by yeast) because instead, an unknown ethanol or alcohol is directly added in a process known as fortification. I think the alcohol content is like 10 or 20%. It tastes sweet, and as I have a sweet tooth, I love it. I think Peter Clarke got us a few big bottles during a Freemason meeting in Leicester, England. I was shocked because it tasted so sweet. I fell in love with it.

I bought a bottle at Tesco for like 10 or 20 quid. I think I saw my dad had also liked it because I saw an empty cask of it. I'm not a big drinker, I only drink to enjoy. But I downed an entire full bottle of Graham's by myself in a day, perhaps in a few hours. I have no real self control.

I bought my favourite chocolates, the Milka bubbly alpine, I got a box of 12 chocolate slabs, and I was originally planning to distribute to my family, but I ate everything. I couldn't help myself. I'm bad at delaying self gratification, but I'm a very good person.

Last night,,😬, I don't think I can sleep without getting rid of any tension. But today, my desktop computer laptop browser 2 or 3 times, and nothing really sparked my interest. I guess, I got that off my system.

I asked Uwin Waidyaratne, one of my best friends, to bring back a bottle of Graham's tawny port wine. But I don't think he's going to bring because alcohol is a depressant and as I'm on ███████████████████████████, he probably shouldn't encourage this. I dunno. I'm notably cautious.

1:15 p.m.

I woke up in the morning, and then I wished my mum happy new year and went down to eat milk rice. I don't mind it. I think I'll just make mayonnaise at home. You just need egg, yes egg yolk and egg white, oil, I think I'll use olive oil because I plan to eat large quantities and it's famously healthy, and I think white wine vinegar, a few spices like salt, pepper, sugar, mustard powder or mustard, green herbs, and a squeeze of lemon. This mayo will last a week, so, I just need to make it every week. Since, I'm 45 kg, I can afford to eat calorie dense food, which is close to 550 kilo calories or simply calories per 100 grams. I think I'll eat it all within a week or few days even, I love the stuff.

Obviously, I only want to eat it with potato wedges which my domestic assistant ███████████████████makes really well. I can add cheese, and voila, McDonald's has lost their best customer! 😬

I love this food. I don't understand why everyone else is not like me and prefers to eat ██████████ foods, but I suppose, I was always special, and my diet is also just █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ that I can make mayonnaise and potato wedges and maybe some other time cheese too, although for now, I'll just try buy cheese as I'm not so confident enough to make cheddar myself, just yet.

I guess, next step is to get some minced beef and make some sloppy Joe or something. Or maybe, that can wait. I just need calories and carbohydrates and starch.

1:30 p.m.

I like it. I think this is a sign of my independence ██████████████████. Having gone to 2 business schools after having 10% school attendance due to Complex PTSD ("truancy") and failing 2 A Level subjects, and getting only a B and C for A Levels, this is a big sign of my growing independence. 🌅

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1:45 p.m.

I need to make some cheese. I also need to bake some bread with flour as my ██████████████████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████,█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I think I'm one of those people who can live on bread, cheese, and Graham's tawny port wine, and potato wedges with mayonnaise.

The only real rice dish I like is Chicken Penang with sticky Jasmine Rice from Tesco. But that's a one off. I think I like the coconut milk. It tasted amazing. I miss Tesco. They were like my personal butler, always ready to give me what I needed for the week, and delivering things and carrying things up the lift for me. So nice.

I think I remembered, or the holy spirit inspired, a quote from our lord and saviour Jesus Christ. He said in Matthew 4:4, "Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of G-d" or ███████████████████████████████████.. ███████████████████████████████████had a point, I must also not trade in my█████████████ for the demon of gluttony. I████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:00 p.m.

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I'm getting so hungry thinking of food. Jeez, I want some fried potato chips or french fries. I love the taste of fried food. I have earned the privilege of eating anything I like! I wonder what's there for lunch.

On Christmas day, they should offer a ██████████████████ which is basically pizza bread dipped in red wine. I bet it'll taste pretty nice. I miss Singapore for the Hainanese Chicken Rice I really like when it's made properly.

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Steve met fellow foodie Anthony Bourdain at the DBU. That's pretty cool. My friends are generally performing really well at life. Too bad for our friend Anthony Bourdain █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:15 p.m.

I need to visit Red Eye Smokehouse in Singapore. I love beef brisket. I think I can go with my Chinese dad and dad's best friend Martinn uncle. I can't finish my food though. I think the trouble is I savour the food and get satiated quickly. I love bacon Bakkwa from Bee Cheng Hiang, but I take forever to eat up like 200 grams of it. I need to make Bakkwa at home, but I don't think I could replicate their Bacon Bakkwa.

Wed 1 Jan

2:30 p.m.

I went around my house to see what's up. Apparently, my mum won't go to a dinner at Roshani's house because one of the Rajapaksas had changed his mind and decided not to go, so the dinner is off. My mum will instead go for a lunch soon. We are going to go for a family Buddhist blessing event at I think Gangaramaya Temple if I remember correctly, at 6:00 p.m.

I went downstairs and asked my Vasanthi to make me fried potato wedges█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I think we have all the ingredients except a lemon, to make mayonnaise at home. I can't wait to make some.

2:45 p.m.

I think the potato wedges from 1 small potato is 120 calories. So, 3 potatoes is like 400 calories, plus it's fried, so, about 500 calories. With a generous serving of mayonnaise at 500 calories per 100 grams, I think it should be about 200 calories of mayonnaise. This adds up (500 + 200) to a 700 calorie lunch, breakfast, dinner and snack = 700 kcal x 4 servings = 2,800 calories. I should gain weight with this. 🤔🧐🤭🤓😬

3:00 p.m.

I'm so bored. I think it's a waiting game. We need to wait very patiently for things in cyber security and with our projects.

3:45 p.m.

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4:00 p.m.

I would like some craft beer too. I'm into tasty stuff. I think if you add too much sugar, the yeast in beer eats it up and the drink gets fizzy and carbonated as the oxygen and sugar is converted to alcohol and carbon dioxide irrespectively. I saw Red Eye Smokehouse has green beer. Wow, I gotta try that.

I need to really stress that we try discover exploitable vulnerabilities that can be used to steal sensitive information from customers or corporate secrets or to cause damage to gain leverage to steal money or damage service performance, reliability or operations -- when pen testing, although Ruchira's a bit scared to.

5:00 p.m.

I was on Instagram hehe. What to do? I stopped myself. I need to get my beard shaved and brush my teeth. I'm going for this Buddhist family event at 6:00 p.m. I need to visit Puthula Akki's place to see if they've got any Nelli cordial, I want to try, it is green coloured.

5:30 p.m.

Looked at some I have really good stamina lol. . I'm going to go get ready to visit this temple event. I'm a Buddhist and a wishful Christian. Except, it's tough to decide if any of these stories about Jesus were true.

5:45 p.m.

But I hope I can get rid of any bad habits this year. This decade is going to be the best decade yet. I'm 26, I think I'll really enjoy life till I'm 36. I need to really get into organising uncle Thilanga's political campaign and Jagath uncle's Buddhist religious work.

11:45 p.m. We

I'm calling it a night. Facebook won't let me edit comments. I'm so sleepy. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Thu 2 Jan

10:30 a.m.

I'm under a lot of stress. I'm just waiting. I'm doing a lot of thinking too. Today, I think I want to make mayonnaise with olive oil, egg, mustard, vinegar, available spices and I think a squeeze of lemon. I think we need the acidity to be high, so a low PH because we want to avoid bacteria growing in alkaline environments or for a Salmonella risk. We need to eat everything within a week as well. I'm looking forward to eating with fried potato wedges. It's one of my favourite, go to, comfort foods. It's a lot of helpful calories.

10:45 a.m.

I'm disappointed by Facebook's algorithms stopping me editing comments. I think it's bad software architecture. I don't care. I'll just write Thu and the time Th and then add it later onwards manually. I think I can amalgamate 10 comments in 1 minute, so, it's not a big deal.

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1:30 p.m. Th

I think I'll just hire and appoint my friends into my board of directors and pay them just because they're my friends and I trust them. ████████████████████████████████████████████

2:45 p.m. Th

I need lunch. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. I need fried up potato wedges or chips with mayonnaise.

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I'm going to go down and get some lunch. I'm getting hungry. I saw Quentin Tarantino's gotten married at 55 to that 20 year younger ██████████████████: 35 year old Daniella Pick. I was pleasantly surprised. He really scored. Hahaha. I love his movies.

I'm pretty tired. I need to get on with my day. I gotta get Rs 2mn or $10,000 USD to pay $100 per hour of pen testing, for 100 hours of work at Dialog Axiata PLC. I've done the hard work doing the ground work and setting everything up. I think Dialog may pay for it.

3:00 p.m.

I think it's a big deal for me to succeed at 26. I think I can help my two uncles and get more successful over time.

3:30 p.m. Th

Talk about how life gives you lemons and you gotta make lemonade, we need to go to supermarket and find lemonade for our mayonnaise recipe. I think it'll last 1 week at home in the fridge.

I'm going to go to Moratuwa for uncle Thilanga's general election political campaign work. I'm sure to have fun. I think I'll get into politics for sure because leadership is my favorite job. I think I'll learn with these experiences because I'm just 26 years old.

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3:30 p.m. Th

Talk about how life gives you lemons and you gotta make lemonade, we need to go to supermarket and find lemonade for our mayonnaise recipe. I think it'll last 1 week at home in the fridge.

I'm going to go to Moratuwa for uncle Thilanga's general election political campaign work. I'm sure to have fun. I think I'll get into politics for sure because leadership is my favourite job. I think I'll learn with these experiences because I'm just 26 years old.

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9:00 p.m.

Oops I deleted a few comments by accident as I was copy pasting things.

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