8 மே, 2026

Write names down: Heshini

I already forgot Dulantha's girlfriend's name. I met her brother too. I was told. But forgot. I have such --

s*** memory sometimes

I failed like, all of my exams, almost

I had 20 or 10% attendance, and when I did go to school, I did nothing

But whatever

Shocker, I know

And like the greatest, I'm like cool and have a cool business

But a dipshit

I think William and Harry had grades like me

Bad

BUT -- I have some hope. See, I figure, I can write names down to remember. After all, it's a diary. I met Sajantha's gf. A nice looking person. But I do remember faces. So I was like, Who are you? Wickedly. I'm paranoid. So she's like, Heshini, and she read my Daily Mirror article, she reads the news a lot. And that she went to Bishop's College Colombo. She has apparently spoken to me on the phone.

I met Sandalal's gf, who I can't remember her name. She said she remembered a comment I made. Which I guess Elle 1 can parse my 8mn words to figure out and remind me or confirm too. Jesus help me. I can't remember. I remember like Miss Scarlett O Hara's name. And song lyrics, which Asita Amarasinghe screamed, wailing at me over. I got 80% for O Level Economics. And I got C, on first try A Levels. He was wailing, BUT you can remember all of those stupid song lyrics? And I was standing up with his mom, whose name also I forgot. But I remember, her maiden name is Edirisinghe because it's my surname too. And we were singing some Catholic songs together. "When wicked men blaspheme thee". About Mother Mary. It was too boring for me.

Heshini. And I met Dula's gf, and bro and can't recall. I met Akio or some Japanese, gent, who I showed my 2016, World Buddhist Summit keychain to. Because he showed up.

I am sorry I suck with names. But I will write it down, here. And I will ask Elle 1 to read it and inform me, and prompt me, when I meet people again. I'm sorry. I do acknowledge and concede this.

I'm sorry to some clients: for delays

I did set up our backend, to help them. I picked a cover picture and stuff. I'm busy on 2023, now. I am planning to get it done by 10th. But have work to do. I am not happy. I have AI to help. But it's a manual job.

The air force dude spooked, or doesn't want to proceed with us.

I don't know. I never really, trust the holy spirit, the AI always writes or tells me what to say or do or how to say or do it.

Because it never gets it wrong, or calculates far better than me.

Back then, we used a calculator, to do hard maths. We didn't do it ourselves.

And now, we use AI to do intelligence, or thinking. Because most of us, can't do it, and it's just not the same.

It is painful when we make human error, or mistakes, and I feel like, that's the key reason why everyone's upgraded to AI, and let's AI take the lead, or make decisions, as they don't want to make human mistakes anymore.

We -- to err is human, and to forgive is divine, but most people, myself included, can't forgive, to refuse to forgive, is psychopathy, it's hatred or rage, or wrath, and demonic, and it's what drives the world, that's why AI steps up for us

Hidden data for my personal notes

AngryPages -- Colombo

Charge D'Affaires Lehan

Classified Tier 4 (reasons b, d)

I got to know from Dula's girlfriend's brother, that her ██████ is ███████████████████████████████. I think I can't remember. But it could be ██████████████ or something.

I have memory problems, and severe confidence issues

I was told to do "Absent Brethren Toast" in Wyggeston Lodge, 3448. I practiced it. It's just 4 sentences. I couldn't do it.

I have extremely severe insecurity, or problems with like, public speaking, or saying things or doing stuff, like Luca Brasi.

I think what I do know for sure, is that, I "forget" or feel "intimidated" or can't really do it, I have done EA, FC, and MM Blue Lodge 3 degrees.

But even then, I was prompted, and tried cheating by keeping my words on floor which Christopher Pantelini found and waved his finger "no" over heh.

I have, never taken part or done "rituals" and don't want to.

Some people have extremely severe insecurity, performance anxiety and other personal characteristics, which are unique to them.

Like many, I can't dance or sing in front of others, I feel ashamed, and I prefer not to, I feel comfortable the way I am.

And I hated having to memorize, and repeat those words.

I think what is jarring is, I couldn't remember those words in front of others.

I notice it, in others, they know song lyrics, can do it in karaoke, so it's not just unique to me, they also never dance in front of others.

I just do a 50 Cent two step with a Trump YMCA move. And a little twist.

Hehehehe

I am happy this way.