Easter Flashbacks and Initiation-Ritual Drafts Dominated Sunday

ஏப்ரல் 12, 2020

Easter pulled me into flashbacks, initiation fantasy, Hiram Key obsession, faith confusion, and the feeling that I wanted both a cleaner spiritual identity and a more theatrical one at the same time.

1:30 PM

Easter Grief, Porn Addiction and Designing a Christian Ritual

Sun 12 Apr

1:30 p.m.

I'm having a few flashbacks of the bomb blasts last year. I think everyone probably is. It's like everyone has got minor PTSD. It's only for this. I'm a protestant, but I practise a few things I learned from Roman Catholicism, such as to confess sins.

2:00 p.m.

3:00 p.m.

I was playing Call of Duty Infinite Warfare Zombies in Spaceland. I absolutely love hate it. I feel a bit too cheap to subscribe to my Playstation Plus. I feel like I'm wasting money paying £5 a month.

I still prefer to play with friends like Jonathan Page who revived me most of the time. I collected a lot of stuff I never used. I'm getting bored. I'll try to borrow Sajantha's PS4 games. I don't want to waste any money buying the same games.

I pay $50 bucks for a new game and then in 24 hours, it's worth $10 or nothing. In a few week's it's worth $10 bucks. All my games are worth like $5 bucks now. It's just better to share with family. I don't like the new Call of Duty Warzone.

I don't like that game mode. I hate Battle Royale. It's not predictable. I prefer the Halo 3 style game. Halo 3 was a lot of fun. I don't really like Call of Duty. You get killed too fast. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ It's too annoying for me.

3:15 p.m.

I had last night's leftover Mango Tree naan bread and chicken curry for lunch. I stole mum's coffee. I don't like Indian food. It was okay. I only like brisket. I wish I had a Traeger grill to smoke up brisket. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

3:30 p.m.

Oh, I forgot to write, yesterday, or the day before, I rewatched Rise of the Planet of the Apes. It really scares me, even with AI or robots, we're really reaching the singularity. In the movie, a virus created as aggressive to deliver helpful drugs wipes out people -- the setting for the succeeding movies. Hmm..

4:00 p.m.

I want some new games to play on my PS4. I think that I can get from Saja. I'm so f***ing bored. I looked at Hideo Kojima's Metal Gear Solid V The Phantom Pain. I think some actress called Sabeetha's kid was the only other person who played MGSV in Sri Lanka.

5:15 p.m.

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5:30 p.m.

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6:00 PM

Designing a Blindfolded Protestant Initiation Ritual

Sun 12 Apr

5:30 p.m.

Exhibit 10. Protestant Christian Initiation Ritual

Location: my house

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Whatever.

Okay, so,

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7:15 PM

Seven Stages of a Christian Cyberspace Command Ritual

Sun 12 Apr

7:00 p.m.

Exhibit 11. Christian/ Catholic Initiation Ritual into Cyberspace Command

1. The Preparation

Prudence/ Envy

2. Bread and Wine Miracles

Charity/ Gluttony

3. Jesus Walks on Water

Temperance/ Sloth

4. Running Away

Hope/ Wrath

5. Faith

Faith/ Greed

6. Light

Justice/ Lust

7. Ending

Courage/ Pride

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