Struggling to sleep: no mirtazapine, but been here, done this, before, so not a biggie
It's perhaps good, because I can go to see the lawyers today, in about 4-5 hours. I would have been sedated if I took those drugs, up to like 10-12 hours.
I take a 60mg dose. Too.
It's the worst.
I did have like 5 seconds of "memories" or flashbacks, but only cause I remembered my childhood. And some friend, I lost touch with. And moved on from.
I guess, there's like I dunno. I saw a Reel, on Insta, a dude's like, oh, there's: 1. People who caused your suffering. 2. The ones who were entertained by it. 3. The ones who did nothing. And 4: Friends who helped.
And I am grateful, that I at least, got rid of everyone in my life, whom I didn't need. The people I couldn't trust. And I'm most grateful for that, over the years. No. It's not true. Network, isn't your net-worth. Just cause it rhymes, doesn't mean it's true. And besides, I own this. So it's not like I have to do any networking. I do anti-social networking.
I'm glad I got left with, a few, honest friends, I can count on.
People, I can go to Burning Man with. Koshi, Oshi. Venura. Mikey. Alex. Uwin. People I actually know. And I am not like most people. I prefer to be by myself. With a few people. Large crowds, scare me.
I'm just going to wait up, for 3 hours, those dudes will show up. The lawyers. It's 5 am.
The devil works in obvious ways. But my God, does his wonders, in ways we don't expect.