I Mixed Cigar Exhibits, Behaviour Warnings, and Saturday Business Grind
May 16, 2020
Cigar nostalgia, business work, rehab worry, and a tired porn spiral shaped the day, with all the old performance instincts still there even as I was clearly losing energy.
Cigars, Smoking Discipline and Wanting to Try a Cuban
Sat 16 May
Exhibit 7. Cigars
Made famous by Tony Montana in my eye: "Push it to the limit!" There's something cool about cigars.
Koshi asked me to get some Davidoff cigarettes a long time ago, or something.
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I never really liked smoking cigarettes though. I was always so disciplined. I mean, I never really had a problem drinking. I think that's something special about me.
I remember I got a cigar for the first time and I didn't know I had to cut it or whatever. I didn't have a cigar cutter. So, I smoked it without cutting it. It was okay, but nothing so special. It wasn't a big deal. I didn't particularly like it.
It was just flavoured smoke in my mouth, I only ever thought about mouth cancer, so, I never enjoyed it. I thought of Sharma uncle's stained teeth.
I think I'm really disciplined, I don't think these things are a big deal. But I want to smoke a Cuban cigar. I appreciate the workmanship that goes into rolling and producing these.
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There was some other brand I forgot about.
I only smoked so many cigarettes in Singapore because everyone else was doing it while standing underneath the hot sun.
Calling Porn My Drug of Choice and Seeking Rehabilitation
Sat 16 May
11:00 a.m.
I'm working on business stuff.
11:15 p.m.
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11:30 p.m.
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11:45 p.m.
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